Tonight my mood while writing this post can be summed up in one word- comfort. Why is that you might ask? Well, there are a number of reasons. First, I am watching one of my all-time favorite movies, You’ve Got Mail. My regular readers will not be surprised by this- as it is the one of only two movies I have written entire posts on (See Open to Change). It’s interesting because I wrote the post in May of last year when my life was going through many changes. Now my life is once again changing and wouldn’t you know I turn to the same movie to provide escapism and comfort. I know it is predictable and somewhat obvious, but I don’t care. It makes me laugh, has lots to say about modern-day work, captures my love of books and New York City, and realizes my fantasy of a romantic pen pal. Plus, its themes of modernity and change are ones I continue to come back to again and again. I will not bore you by re-posting my favorite quotes from the movie. You can look at my original post for that. Suffice it to say, it is a comfort movie in a time of change. Do any of you have movies you watch repeatedly? One of these days I am going to do a posting on my favorite movies. I have started one several times but it is difficult to pare it down to a manageable list.
The second comforting aspect of tonight is the food I made. I happened to have the ingredients to make one of my family’s favorite items- German potato salad. If any of you haven’t enjoyed this dish, it is made with potatoes, bacon, vinegar, sugar, flour, celery seed, salt and onion. It is one of those dishes that pulls off the delicious sweet/salty combination. I have been trying to eat healthier in the last few weeks (lost 10 lbs in 5 weeks!) , so perhaps this choice was a bit of an indulgence but as a main course for dinner it wasn’t too bad. We have a tradition in our family of eating a German meal on Christmas Eve. It sounds odd but it is delicious. The main course is bratwurst sandwiches cooked on the griddle with rye bread, gooey swish cheese and my mom’s special sauerkraut. Most people turn their noses up at sauerkraut but that is because they haven’t tried my mom’s. It is delicious. She takes the sauerkraut, rinses it, and then boils it in fresh apple cider for hours until it is sweet/salty yummy! It has won over even the most ardent sauerkraut haters. As a side for the meal we also have german potato salad. I have tried to recreate the other aspects of the Christmas Eve meal but to no avail. The two times I tried the sauerkraut it didn’t turn out and the sandwiches are nothing without it. The german potato salad I have succeeded in making, so I decided to tackle it tonight. It was delicious and comforting.
The third comforting aspect of tonight is the satisfaction of hard work. Is there anything better or more comforting than relaxing after working really hard? Ever since I got home from Hawaii I have felt a bit like a chicken with its head cut off- running around frantically, working hard and not knowing what was happening next. I can now see things coming into place but it’s been a bit overwhelming. As with any change there is the fear of the unknown, the fear of being unhappy, the fear of picking the wrong path. It has been hard and I think I’ve done a pretty good job keeping it all together. Maybe part of it is I’ve been so busy there hasn’t been much time for moping around the house or worrying. There were about 2 weeks when I allowed myself to stress out about the future, but now I am excited about the opportunities that are coming. As I mentioned in my last post I have gone from worrying whether I had one job to now having the potential for four- vacation rentals, sales tax, Grabber events, and managing other people’s vacation rentals. I have had to put the real estate school on the back burner for August but that will start up in September, which I am excited about (my renting 2 of the Suncrest houses as long-term rentals should be a good sign for my future as a property manager!). This week in particular I have been working all hours on the vacation rentals, the long-term rentals, getting trained on sales tax, working on Grabber events and more. Yesterday I was up at the houses from the morning until late in the afternoon working and forgot to drink enough water or eat lunch. Eventually I had to lie down because I started feeling faint. I also had phone calls all day- by 2 pm I had received 25 incoming calls! It was exhausting. Today I knew I needed to take a break from it all and that is what I have done. I had my voice lesson this morning, which is always wonderful. Then I came home worked on my computer for the afternoon, made dinner and am watching the movie. It feels great to just enjoy my life!
The only thing that would make today more comforting is if I wasn’t alone. However, maybe wishing for someone to watch You’ve Got Mail and eat german potato salad with is wishing for too much! Even if a man is unrealistic, it would be the icing on the cake to have a girlfriend or two with me. There are so many who are far away, and I miss greatly- Melissa, Raelene, Emily and Stefanie to name a few. I can also imagine this night with my sisters- all of us laughing and eating together. Still, they are all only a phone call away, and they all love me. As much as I would love their company, the knowledge of their love builds me and provides comfort. I know whatever career path or life choice I make my friends and family will support and encourage me. One of my most frequent prayers throughout my life has been one of gratitude to my Heavenly Father for all the love He has given me.
A couple of posts ago I wrote about needing increased faith for the months ahead. It may have sounded trite or simplistic to some, but I don’t care. Having faith means believing in something that is not seen. At that moment I could not see what was in store for me. I still have many unknowns but already I have seen new opportunities open- chances that will help me be a better, more interesting person. This is perhaps the most comforting part about tonight- that I know everything will be ok. My life is watched over. As long as I work hard, believe in myself and trust in God then everything will turn out for the best. This is a hard thing to believe when life is in chaos but it’s true.
Thank you for all your support during this crazy time. Thank you for the comfort.