Category: current events

Harassment, Selective Outrage and Gratitude for Good Men

I don’t know if anyone has noticed but I have taken a break from talking about politics on social media these days. It’s just became too toxic and was causing me anxiety. I haven’t cut off completely but I’ve definitely toned it way down. However, today I would like to say a few words about recent events.

As I’m sure most you know Hollywood producer Harvey Weinstein has been exposed as an abuser of women and serial harasser. He particularly preyed on young talent who would be vulnerable to a high powered man’s influence. It makes me sick when I think of young women full of ideals and dreams going out to Hollywood, thinking they got their big break in meeting Weinstein and then being treated no better than your average stripper- if not worse.

The other news that made me very sad came from the world of youtube. Creator of Honest Trailers and head of Screenjunkies, Andy Signore, got exposed for sexual harassing many young women. This was honestly more sobering and sad for me than Weinstein because I was a fan of Screenjunkies and had watched many hours of Andy’s content. It’s particularly upsetting because apparently Andy preyed on female fans of the show and young interns. I mean if I had been invited to Screenjunkies I would have been so excited, so to hear such fans were treated so horribly is discouraging.

Then of course you have mixed in all of this the perpetual selective outrage of modern culture. All of these celebrities who were outraged by everything Donald Trump did were ignoring, excusing, or even silencing what Harvey Weinstein did. There were literally people outraged over Melania Trump’s selection of shoes one day but these types of behavior by Weinstein, and Trump for that matter, are ignored until they become politically inconvenient. I am not a fan of Donald Trump as a human being, but I recognize for the good of our country, we need to make the best out of a bad situation. Actual policy disagreement is fine but the continual outrage machine is exhausting and loaded with hypocrisy.

Honestly all of this mess left me feeling pretty depressed this week. I found myself saying ‘where have all the good men gone?’ I feel horrible for the women who are just trying to earn a living and do something they love. And I am fully aware this type of harassment is rampant amongst all the powerful and elite, not just Hollywood. It makes me glad I have chosen a simple life where I am pretty safe from these types of situations (one benefit to working from home is no harassment). Still, it’s not right, and I hope more women will be inspired to speak out in the future. The only way this mess stops is if we have clear consequences for the perpetrators. It’s sad but true.

While these events did make me feel depressed, I also had to remind myself that there are many good men in my life. They aren’t powerful men but they are good men. Naturally my father and brothers fit into this category. They all care deeply about those around them and are fiercely protective of the women in their lives. I also have many wonderful uncles, cousins and friends who have been great examples to me in many ways. 

One advantage to blogging and podcasting is most of my interactions are with men. In my experience men tend to be bigger film fans than women, so over the years I have had the privilege of meeting and becoming friends with many good men. I’ve never been someone who has a lot of good guy friends so this has been a very positive experience for me.

They may not get the articles or flashy attention, but I am grateful for the good men in my life. Thank you for showing me respect and being a loving and kind influence. It gives me something to hope for in this divisive and frustrating time we live in.

My Thoughts on the Election

So things have been happening this week in the good old USA…

Any follower of this blog knows I am a strong and passionate conservative. Typically that has meant I align with the Republican candidates for office. However, this year I didn’t feel there was a conservative in the race so I voted for 3rd party candidate Evan McMullin. My hope was maybe Utah would vote 3rd party and that would be a message from one state on both of the terrible options we were being given. Unfortunately that didn’t happen in Utah and they voted Republican as expected.

Being a 3rd party voter this cycle has provided me an interesting vantage point that I didn’t entirely anticipate. I’ve explained in the past that a vote itself is statistically insignificant especially for president. That said, when I did vote for a major party I felt an investment in the outcome in a different way than this cycle. Voting 3rd party I’ve been able to simply observe and ponder the great country I am a citizen of and the tremendous events that have happened. It is this perspective that has made me a bit of a post-election coverage addict. I’ve watched an insane amount of pundits from both parties giving their conclusions of how this happened.

To be clear, I was completely stunned by the results on Tuesday. I was positive Hillary Clinton was going to win the election, and we would just have to put up with more of the same type of failed policies we’ve had from the last 8 years. That was it and I could deal with that.

But then Donald Trump won state after state, and I couldn’t believe it. In our world of PC and quick to offend lifestyles it seemed impossible that someone like Donald Trump could become president, and yet there it was. I honestly support more of the platforms and policies of the Republican party that Trump adopted so in a way I was glad but I was also sad to see the highest position in the land come down to someone like him. I certainly hope he proves me wrong and ends up being a better president than campaigner, but I was still sad.

A few weeks ago I wrote a post about how I have lost my faith in ‘public servants‘. I still believe that and stand by my sentiments in the post; however, I’ve realized a few additions to the ideas I presented. Politics today and perhaps always, is an exercise in self-interest and self-protection.  This is why we saw senators and congressman distance themselves from Trump just enough to claim the moral high ground while riding his popularity to a win. For example, Mike Lee never officially endorsed Trump and he announced after the election he had voted for Evan McMullin, but that doesn’t mean much when you could have  said something before the election. He rode that wave of self-interest in just the right way to keep his job and still claim he did the right thing at the ballot. It’s sad when you think about it but it is reality

But self-interest is what we’ve got and so where is the cause for hope? I actually think there is a fair amount to be hopeful about.

It might sound strange but oddly there is some hope to be had in self interest. Yes, Donald Trump has said some awful things and I understand why people are upset. I really do. However, it is not in his self-interest to implement all those things or continue saying all those things. I’m not excusing it in the least just stating what I think is reality. Even with a house and senate he still has to sell his ideas to the Congress and the American people. It’s in his self-interest to make them as palatable as possible.

It’s the same way with Hillary Clinton. She gave a gracious lovely concession speech where she said:

“Donald Trump is going to be our president. We owe him an open mind and a chance to lead. Our constitutional democracy enshrines the peaceful transition of power and we don’t just respect that we cherish it”

She could have gotten up there and been bitter and gone on a tirade, and I have no doubt a side of her wanted to do just that. I mean just days before she had called Trump supporters a ‘basket of deplorables’. Why didn’t she do it? Because it would not be in her self-interest to do so. Her best move at this moment is to do exactly what she did, and I commend her for it. I’m not trying to take anything away from her. I’m just being realistic about the motives of our leaders.

I think this is perhaps why the Founding Fathers made Supreme Court justices lifetime appointments. It removes, for the most part, this element of self-interest and forces them to look at the cases without fear of backlash or legacy. Their jobs are safe and so they are free to decide on these important issues in the way they see fit.

President Obama stated today he wants to see President Trump succeed:

““It is important for all of us, regardless of party and regardless of political preferences, to now come together, work together, to deal with the many challenges that we face…If you succeed, then the country succeeds”

What he is basically saying is that it is in all of our self-interest to make this work and to want President Trump to succeed because if he fails we all suffer. It’s as simple as that.

I’m not excusing any of President Elect Trump’s behavior. I’m merely saying- this is the situation we have and just like President Obama we have to make the best of it. It’s in our self-interest to do so. Peaceful protest is fine. I did it with the tea party and I’m proud of it but we must never allow it to harm the very institution we are trying to save. People breaking windows and destroying property are hurting the country they feel so passionate about. That is not the answer.

We also need to take stock of the toxic climate we have created where good men and women don’t want to be involved in politics any more. Think about your friends and family. I bet most of them avoid politics like the plague- even discussing it, let alone running for office. Perhaps we have left no one more to vie for leadership than what we got in 2016?

Either way, this is what we have left with. Agree with it or not, Donald Trump is our president.

I want him to be successful because I want America to be successful. It’s as simple as that.

Also you guys should read this post I wrote in 2012 about America and a female president.

Lastly I want to say thank you to Evan McMullin for giving me someone to vote for. You stepped up when nobody else would and that means the world to me. Thank you so much!

Twitter Glory and Potatoes

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“Life is tough, darling. Life is hard. And we better laugh at everything; otherwise, we’re going down the tube” Joan Rivers

As you can tell from my last post I’ve been struggling with some things happening of late particularly with the election. It’s just been a more than a little depressing. Fortunately, a funny thing happened on Thursday that brightened my day and I thought I would share it with you.

I’ve mentioned in the last couple of posts I have already cast my ballot for independent candidate Even McMullin. He is the only candidate I can remotely have even a particle of faith in and no I don’t care about throwing away my vote. (I can’t believe smart people like Orrin Hatch buy into such nonsense).

Anyway, Evan has been getting a lot of media and a broadcaster named Lou Dobbs tweeted out this:

Look Deeper, He’s nothing but a Globalist, Romney and Mormon Mafia Tool”

It’s a good thing he let me know because I’ve been a member of the LDS Church for my entire life and never heard of this “mormon mafia”. Well, Evan slayed it in his response letting Lou know there were people of many faiths part of his movement and then used hashtag #MormonMafia.

As any good mafia would do this started a barrage of funny tweets using #MormonMafia. I particularly liked one where they were dumping out the Coca Cola before the authorities came.

Well, I decided to join in the fun and tweeted out the above tweet “They don’t call them funeral potatoes for nothing” with a picture of the iconic Mormon side dish known as funeral potatoes.

If you aren’t aware funeral potatoes are cheesy potatoes often made at funerals because they are comforting, easy and most people like them. Hence the name.

potatoes2Anyway, before I knew it my tweet had exploded like nothing I had ever experienced before. Last checked it had nearly 1400 likes and 481 retweets, which is a lot for me and it was quoted in all kinds of publications from Washington Post, LDS Living to the Huffington Post! The entire day I had friends and family letting me know they saw my tweet.

Now I wish all of these people would subscribe to my channel but as they say any exposure is good exposure (most of the time at least). Nevertheless, it was a surreal and fun experience.

You see friends, when you tell a joke someone finds really funny it feels good. If they are rolling on the ground laughing, it makes you feel kind of clever for coming up with said joke. That’s how I felt last week except for with thousands of people including all the social media platforms. In a way it was a little overwhelming but it also felt pretty good!

It’s been a long depressing election cycle so I was grateful for a good laugh and the knowledge I’d made a few other people laugh if only for a moment. During this election we need those moments! Or at least I certainly need them.

This whole thing has also given me a fierce craving for funeral potatoes! But watch out for that Mormon Mafia. You never know where they will hit first.

Paris and the Ability to do Nothing

I am sure most of you have heard about the horrible terror attacks in Paris today.  I heard about the events later than most because I was innocently watching My Little Pony of all things on a binge watch (it was an animated show I still had yet to check out and I really liked it).  Then I noticed on my twitter feed a bunch of comments about Paris and I turned on the news.  It was awful.  People at a concert, out to eat, at a soccer game attacked and at least 153 brutally killed.  It’s hard to even wrap my brain around.  I remember feeling that way after 9/11 and the Boston Marathon Bombing.  Why would anyone do such a thing?

My immediate concern was also to my sister who is currently living in Spain and traveling all around Europe on a fairly regular basis.  She just finished up a trip in Amsterdam and I wanted to make sure she was ok.  I didn’t know if I would wake her up but I sent her a text saying I was worried and I guess she had a nightmare and then read my text right after waking up.  That must have been a very surreal experience for her.  She is fortunately safe and not in a major city likely to be targeted but I still worry with her being over there.  I hope and pray she is able to stay safe.

It’s just so awful.  There’s no other way to say it, and what makes it worse is there is so little that can be done about it. Yes we can do more to fight terrorism and I have my own views on the current administrations job in that department but in the end if some wacko wants to go into a public place and do something like this there is little we can do to stop it.  We can’t be under guard and security all the time for every meal we eat, every movie we see, every concert we attend.  That’s not to say we can’t do a heck of a lot and it is a miracle more incidents like this don’t happen but at a certain point we can’t stop it. It’s not like the conflict of old  where a peace treaty is signed and a cavalry withdrawn.  These are soldiers who do not differentiate between civilian and soldier and don’t need a cavalry to do their damage.

It’s very scary time and was foretold to us by Timothy

“This know also, that in the last days perilous times shall come”.

And I guess for me it is a weird experience watching the carnage and hearing the reporters talk about it.  I find I can only listen to about 15 minutes because it becomes circular and I end up weeping at the stories. And yet I feel guilty watching or doing anything else.  But on the other hand, what good is it for me to be upset here in Utah?  Aside from making a donation to the Red Cross or other worthy organization there isn’t much I can do about it.  It’s a very strange feeling to be presented with so much suffering and just have to sit and watch. It’s kind of a no-win situation.

So I went back to watching other programs and considered going to a movie but again for some reason that felt wrong and disrespectful, which I own is kind of ridiculous but that’s how I felt. You kind of feel like in the story of the Good Samaritan the Levite and the priest who leave the suffering man to die, but in this case there isn’t anything you can do despite seeing the images of suffering. Have any of you felt that way?

I guess if it can be any comfort we also know that during these difficult times God will be in the midst of the faithful to give us strength.

Zephaniah “The LORD thy God in the midst of thee is mighty; He will save, He will rejoice over thee with joy”

We must never forget that He is mighty to save and He will help us and our leaders get through this perilous time.

“I will go before your face. I will be on your right hand and on your left, and my Spirit shall be in your hearts, and mine angels round about you, to bear you up.”

Jesus-Christ-Lamb-MormonI know it’s been said a million times but pray for Paris and all those in need of comfort on this horrible day.

Summer Updates

S0 it got to be 103 degrees today. Let’s just say SUMMERRR is here! I have been having a great time.  Summer is always so much more fun for me than Winter.  Just the addition of open water swimming makes my life better.  (Swimming in an indoor pool just isn’t the same). I’ve been able to see all my swim friends that I somehow miss in the winter.

Here are some highlights

I’ve been to plays including Wrinkle in Time at BYU which was mind blowing and Tarzan at Scera which was good.

My BFF Emily and I at Tarzan
My BFF Emily and I at Tarzan
Rachel B and I at Wrinkle in Time.  She's so cool and it was an amazing experience. Like no play I've ever seen
Rachel B and I at Wrinkle in Time. She’s so cool and it was an amazing experience. Like no play I’ve ever seen

I’ve been working really hard at my new job with Poler.

like this photo tons.  Been a happy time in my life.
In my office. I like this photo tons. Been a happy time in my life lately.

I’ve been reading a lot, especially rereading Jane Austen to get ready for book club. Its funny because I talk about them a lot but I haven’t actually read them in a long time.  They are just as brilliant as I remember.

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I’ve been swimming up a storm.  I wish I could go everyday but with work and other responsibilities there just isn’t time.  Went last Saturday to Deer Creek and today to Blackridge Pond in Herriman.

The girls ready for a swim.  Love open water women!
The girls ready for a swim. Love open water women!
Happy Rachel swimming at Herriman.
Happy Rachel swimming at Herriman.
I kind of love this photo of me at Deer Creek.  Got curves?
I kind of love this photo of me at Deer Creek. Got curves?

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Scraped my arm and leg tripping at Deer Creek.  First swimming injury
Scraped my arm and leg tripping at Deer Creek. First swimming injury
Despite my scrapes I was happy to be in the water.
Despite my scrapes I was happy to be in the water.

Other fun things…I performed in master class on Wednesday and sang Wishing You Were Somehow Here from Phantom of the Opera.  I’m no opera singer but it was fun to let my diva out.

Speaking of diva’s Drop Dead Diva started on lifetime which made my BFF Emily and I very happy. We had dinner together and a little diva watching party.  It did not disappoint.  Great season opening.  I think made even better by the fact that it almost didn’t happen.

emilyThe meal turned out really good.  It was buccatini (my new favorite pasta) with fresh cherry tomatoes, sausage, parm and fresh herbs from my container gardens which drumroll ARE STILL ALIVE!

Look how big my mint is!
Look how big my mint is!
Look how big my basil has gotten.  I guess I don't kill all living creatures :)
Look how big my basil has gotten. I guess I don’t kill all living creatures 🙂

I also made flank steak for the first time to great success

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Not bad looking right? Flank steak is my new favorite

I went to a Josh Turner concert with my friends Emilee and Rachel M (I know a lot of Rachel’s and Emily’s!).  He was super entertaining and has the most sexy voice I think I’ve ever heard.  Its low and he has an old fashioned southern drawl.  His band was really good too.  It was a great night.

Hawaii girl reunion Rachel, Rachel and Emilee
Hawaii girl reunion Rachel, Rachel and Emilee
Josh Turner and the crowd
Josh Turner and the crowd

All in all its been a great summer!  Hope you all have a great 4th and enjoy the hot weather as much as I do. 🙂

Writers Block, Tornados, Recital and Random Thoughts

So I just realized I haven’t updated the blog for a week.  Shame on me!  I am sure all of you my loyal blog readers have been sitting at home wondering when I was going to unleash my creativity and wisdom on you again… (LOL.  Wouldn’t that be the life!).   I have actually at down several times to write but couldn’t come up with anything to say.  I guess you might say I had writers block.

If you ever have any topics you would like me to research, opine on, please suggest!  I suppose when you’ve been blogging for 5 years it isn’t much of a surprise you eventually run out of topics at the ready beckon call.   Need help from all of you!

Tornado-

Of course we had the horrible tragedy in Oklahoma with the tornado this week.  I was shocked by the photos and video.  Naturally I thought of my friend Jani who was my roommate in 2000 and has lived in Oklahoma for the last 10 years.  I saw her last year after a long loss of contact (just lost emails).  I emailed her on Tuesday to see if she was ok and she sent me the following response:

Can you believe this:

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“The greatest need is prayers right now. I’ve heard of some members homes being heavily damaged and some others haven’t been able to get to their homes yet. Most don’t have electricity, and water is low pressure or not on yet. At the stake center, a few blocks north of the area, they are collecting water and boxes so people can collect things from the rubble. Our home is ok and we have water turned on again but we can’t drink it. We’ve had a few friends stay and just sleep or use the internet or electricity to charge stuff. There is a constant sound of helicopters and sirens–its a constant reminder of the critical situation out there. I’m sure once the neighborhoods are opened up there will be a great need for volunteers to clean up. It’s going to take a while. I haven’t heard of any fatalities in the ward or stake but there are complete losses of property. I will get in touch with our rs president again and let you know if there is anything they need. She’s been busy, as you can imagine. It’s sad to see much of our community just gone. We love Moore and the people of Oklahoma!”

Please keep them in your prayers and find little ways to help.  I was really hoping for a way and then out of the blue the Red Cross called me yesterday to individually ask me to donate blood on Friday.  This was kind of amazing because I haven’t given blood in probably three years so I’m shocked they had my number.  My veins are so small and wiggly that I have hesitated in the past (last time I donated I was battled and bruised).  Anyway, I am O- and they said they particularly needed that so I am happy to give it a go and try to help.  I felt like it was a blessing to find a way to help those in need instead of just watching the news.  Cross fingers I can actually donate and my veins will cooperate.

Recital

On other news we had my spring recital today.  It was a great time and my Dad was in town and came to see me.  I didn’t get a video this time but here is a recording I made of singing the song just a few minutes ago.

I sang Make You Feel My Love by Bob Dylan as sung by Adele (no small order!).  I’m not saying I could make American Idol but I don’t think you would be running for the hills, covering your ears.  I was able to get the character of the song which made me happy.  (I wish I had  a recording just so you can see that).

Regardless of how it turns out the whole experience of recitals and voice lessons is so positive.  It makes me feel like I am progressing, learning, and contributing something beautiful to the world.  I work in accounting, which I am grateful for but not exactly the most creative thing.  It feels so good to get out there, work on a song from ilk to all right, and hear the positive feedback (btw, if you hate it, keep it to yourself!)

A happy girl after the recital!
A happy girl after the recital!

Other Random Things-

Comcast has been making me crazy (also part of the reason I haven’t been posting this week, been on the phone with Comcast or having weak to no internet).  After 4 hours today I think we finally figured it out.  Prayers!  At least I have the phone number of the technician so no  more call center nightmares and drives up to Lindon to get new equipment (went through 5 modems before we figured out the gateway channel was full presumably with others from my building).  Sigh

It was so hard to get to this point.  Trust me!
It was so hard to get to this point. Trust me!

Working on getting ready for GSL swim in just a few weeks.  I don’t feel nearly ready but I’m going to give it a go.  Did a 1200 in a long course pool on Saturday, so that felt good.  This taking it slow thing is sort of nerve-wracking and I’m trying to not get nervous.  I keep telling myself if I fail, so what.  My friends love me.  That said, I don’t think I will fail. 🙂

Learned a big lesson at the house Monday.  My roommate had her car in the street and I hadn’t read an email from the HOA about towing cars on the street starting Monday. You can guess the ending of the story.  Her car got towed and it cost us $264.50!  Isn’t that nuts?   Double sigh…

As a proud tea party conservative I am horrified at the IRS targeting of tea party groups.  I attended many rallies in perhaps the most conservative area of the country, Provo, Utah and never felt anything but peaceful, love of country.  Practically the only thing discussed was cutting spending.  Honestly you didn’t hear at the tea party about pro-life, 2nd Amendment or other conservative hot buttons.  It was without a doubt the most patriotic and positive experience I’ve had as an American and the fact that these people have been targeted makes me nuts.  It is wrong and it will not blow over and be forgotten if I have any say in the matter.

So, turns out I had a lot to talk about.  Maybe I should always wait a week. 😉

Hope you are all doing well.  How’s life treating you?

Glued to TV

Aside from sleep and a few errands I have had the TV on most of the last 2 days.  Granted I was working and having the news coverage on as background, but still it was quite the experience to follow the events as they unfolded in Boston and Texas.  Of course, I also had twitter up and would check it on every so often (I love twitter, sometimes they got news before the tv).

After having a tense week personally and in the world  I felt pretty drained but around 6:30  I heard about the fertilizer plant explosion and was horrified so I turned on the news.  Then came the update of a shooting at MIT.  I thought ‘you have got to be kidding me’.  Sucked in I watched until around 2 am as the scene moved from MIT, to Watertown, to a dramatic near-battlefield in the streets with explosions and loud gunshots.  It was unreal.

The whole time I kept having to remind myself that this was not an episode of 24 and Jack Bauer was not about to save the day (someone on twitter did comment that between yesterday and today it has been like an entire season of 24.  True story).  I kept praying and hoping as if I could send good vibes to the officers (the great thing about twitter is you kind of can.  How neat to be able to thank the officers through a tweet!).

Finally I went to sleep and in the morning there was news of the brothers with their eery photos with the one being killed in the gunfire. This was a new kind of terrorist.  They looked so young, so American…A side of me wondered what I would do if I saw someone like that.  I would be scared out of my mind.  Just the whole house arrest thing for an entire city blew my mind.  How terrifying!  I mean they cancelled the Red Sox game!

Next I heard about the officer at MIT who was shot and killed.  I thought of the campus security at BYU and how the greatest danger they come in contact with is jaywalking.  It is a tragedy.  No getting around it.

Then came the reaction of the shooters family and especially the uncle gave quite the press conference.  When asked why his nephews had done this he said ‘because they are LOSERS’.  I loved that. No parsing words or saying they were misdirected or upset or even crazy.  They were losers.  I agree.

The afternoon I had to go out for work and to take my car to the mechanic and when I got home there was news of the officers detonating an explosive device and of door to door searches and Boston looking like a ghost town.  Finally around 6:30 they announced the seek shelter warning had been lifted and they were ‘back to where they were on Monday’.  My heart sank.  I thought of how as the days got greater the easier it was for this person to blend in, to hide, and what if there were others?

My internet buddy was at the marathon and she posted the most heart-wrenching artwork by her sons when she arrived home.   One of them said ‘Welcome home.  I’m glad you weren’t in that explosion XO. I love you!’  Another had a drawing of her finishing and ‘bad guys’ in the corner with explosion behind their mom.  It looked like a super hero if there ever was one. (I would post the artwork but it seemed kind of private so I’ll just describe).

Anyway, the human element of this case had me transfixed.  Normally even the most dramatic news ends up being a lot of the same information repeated again and again but today every time I listened there was something new. I ate some dinner, made banana bread and then the announcement of the lift on the ban happened and I was just about to turn to watching TLC bride day (quite the contrast!) when a reporter started shouting about more gunfire and the news that suspect #2 has been located but is putting up a fight.  Holy cow!

As soon as I heard this I said a quick ‘yes’ but I was still worried that more people would be hurt.By the way, You’ve got to give a lot credit to the family that called about the boat.  That took guts (all those associated have serious courage. Amazing).  It was that guts, that human courage, the human drama which had me riveted to the TV, hoping good would win and that evil would be stopped.

It took what seemed like another half hour, maybe an hour, for the robot to go in, check everything out and then just to the left of  the camera I could hear an officer say ‘We got’em’.   I really did want to cheer.  It was like I had gone on this journey with them emotionally and we had won.  I know I did nothing but I’m just saying for the first nanosecond that’s how it felt.

Now he’s in surgery at the same hospital as many of his victims.  We certainly have been better to him than he was to us.   I am so grateful for all the men and women who keep me safe whether it is in the armed forces or police/fire/coast guard/military. They put their life on the lines and are true heroes.

Since the attack happened on Monday I have heard people say things like ‘this happens all the time and nobody cares in Iran’ or ‘I guess we only get sad when white people are attacked’ and I find these types of comments (especially the last one) to be annoying and offensive.  For years the United States was the most peaceful nation in the world.  Aside from the war of 1812, we had almost no international conflicts or wars for the first 140 or so years of our countries existence.  Of course we had a little thing called the Civil War in between there but we have always been hesitant to pursue war with other lands.

Some may argue with Vietnam and Iraq we have lost that reputation and they may be right; however, I still think it helps explain why such events are so surprising compared with other countries.  The fact is we see each other as a peaceful, loving, democratic republic and who wants to harm such noble endeavors?

Well, clearly some do.  It feels shocking for goodness to be attacked by evil.  It just does.  Especially when you are talking about an 8 year old boy cheering on his mother and is killed.  Also, I will not apologize for feeling more for my fellow countrymen when they are mercilessly killed and maimed in such a peaceful enterprise as a marathon.

Also, as a human being I cannot absorb all the sadness of the world.  I can only take so much.  If I internalized every tragedy which happened around the world I’d have a breakdown.

I still about had a breakdown on Wednesday.  It was a very stressful day and I slept about 3 hours that night. (Got kind of worked up over everything happening in the world and my own life.  Felt very tense).

Once the suspect was in custody everyone cheered and applauded and I was right with them!  Hurrah!  Just awesome.  Next, I heard the President speak and I thought he was great.  You might be surprised to hear me say that but no matter who the president is I appreciate hearing from them in moments of trial and intensity.

It’s interesting because I can’t say I learned anything from my 2 days of news absorption but I feel at peace and an enthusiasm for justice and our wonderful citizens than I did at the beginning of the week.

I am so grateful for all involved including the reporters.  Their coverage was a great gift to me.  Thanks also for all the twitterers who kept me almost more up  to date than the news.  So great!

Now let’s not let these evil people steal our confidence in our fellow man.  Let’s not allow him to take away our comfort-level in going to group sporting events, movies, schools or churches.  They can’t win!  I agree with the president ‘we will not be terrorized’.  (and no hell has not frozen over because I just agreed with the president!).

So, its been a long couple of days and I’m exhausted.  (After Newtown and this Boston area needs a break.  Maybe we should just all vote to give the Red Sox the pennant 😉  ).

All involved in the tragedy will be and have been in my thoughts and prayers.  It was just awful.  I’ve felt bad about it all week.  It’s evil incarnate and I am so grateful that this time good conquered evil.    Same thoughts and prayers go out to the people in Texas as well.  What a week we’ve had!

The drama thank goodness is over. Goodnight! (sorry if this was a little rambling.  I’m super tired.

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