Missing My Race

Friends, I feel sad.

I’m still in a lot of pain but that has become fairly normal.  What makes me sad is missing my race.  For the last 3 years the Deer Creek Open Water Swim has been one of my favorite things to do during the entire year.  I looked forward to it like Christmas, maybe more so, and now it is out of the question.

I was able to sell my spot which is good but it is still a serious bummer. I was just reading a post on facebook and it all sounds like so much fun.  I guess they have awesome finisher medals and are doing the kayak raffle again.  I’m sure they will get a good turn out like last year.

If there was any way I could do it I would, but I can’t even stand straight right now.  Moving my leg hurts let alone kicking in the water.

That’s it. I’m just sad.

But there is a lot to be grateful for. I’m grateful for good friends who have been so supportive.  I’m grateful for all the prayers from family, friends, and my internet community. I’m grateful to anyone who has given me a ride or helped me out especially my friend Stacia and my roommate Regan.

What do you guys think I should do Saturday instead of just stewing on my missing the race?  I don’t have many options and everyone seems to be busy.  Any creative ideas?

I remember thinking in June that my life was going so well and wondering how long it could all last.  Well, July threw me a curve ball I wasn’t expecting.  Sometimes that’s the way life is. The Lord builds you up so you are ready for something hard (and I realize in the grand scheme of things my hard thing isn’t that hard but still it’s been tough for me).

I just wish I could swim in that race…Sigh.

On to next year!

4 thoughts on “Missing My Race

  1. Sorry you will miss the race. Hmmm. I say baby yourself, Maybe go through old photos? Make your favorite drink, get ice cream, write in your journal. These ideas do seem like weekday-ish but it’s what I thought of 🙂 best of luck

  2. Hi Rachel,
    I’ve been a little quiet, but thoughts of you have been noisy in my head. I am really sorry for what you’re dealing with this year. Deer Creek does seem like an amazing event–welcoming, beautiful finisher medals, support for kayakers, etc–and it must be a tough one to miss.

    It seems even more unfair that your friends are all busy, too. I’m one of those friends. I hurt for you. I also know, though, that this wont stop you from swimming forever. Who knows…maybe this will make next year’s swim the best ever for you.

    I hope you treat yourself kindly this Saturday.

    Love,
    T

    1. Thanks. Love you and my friends have been awesome. So grateful.
      I will definitely make next year extra special and will try to think of something fun saturday.
      Sigh…

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