Last night I got no sleep. I was tired all day and had to go to the house in Alpine to show someone around. Worried I would be a drowsy driver I drank some caffeine around 4:30 and I bitterly regretted it by the end of the night. Plus, my ambien prescription is out and that seems to be the only thing that really helps.
It was a long night. I kept trying different strategies but nothing worked. (Deep breathing, counting sheep, listening to audiobook, reading, nothing). Finally around 4:30 I gave up and decided to start working since I was up anyway. Its peculiar because usually this happens when I’m worn out or frazzled but I felt fine. No real stress. The only thing I can put my finger on is that stupid diet coke I drank. I used to drink a super big gulp everyday, sometimes 2 and it wouldn’t affect me much but not any more.
I tried to take melatonin but it wasn’t helping. Nothing was helping.
How do I get in these cycles you ask? Well, I stayed up too late during my recent trip and ever since then I’ve had a hard time going to sleep before 2 am. Sometimes more like 3 am. My body will be tired but my eyes will be wide awake. At a certain point you start to have anxiety about not being able to sleep and it gets worse and worse.
I know it affects me in many ways. Luckily I have a job that is flexible and I can even work late at night if all else fails. But its hard to be motivated to exercise when you are so tired and a lot of the swim masters are at 6 or 6:30 and I’m sorry but I need more than 4 hours of sleep a night.
Last Fall I went to an insomnia specialist and she helped me get things on track so perhaps I need to see her again. Meanwhile I’m trying to stay up till 8 or 9 tonight so I don’t wake up at some crazy hour. Its literally painful. My eyes hurt, head hurts, my stomach is bothering me and I have no appetite.
I don’t mean to be complaining. Its just insomnia is the worst!
Do you guys have any strategies that work for you? I’ve also done the sleep studies and have a cpap but it makes my insomnia really bad so I don’t wear it often. Some days my room helps me a lot with all its beautiful darkness and other days my whole body feels tight and I can’t relax.
By the way, this is my 700th blog post. Pretty crazy right! Thanks to all who read it.