So I’m here in Anaheim for my first vacation in 3 years. Yesterday I had a fun day at Disneyland but was pretty exhausted and my feet hurt very badly. My back had also been seizing up on me. Normally in my training I can take a day off to recover after a day on. Walking all day is one of the hardest things for me. I would much rather swim a 5k than stand and walk for hours. Strange I know but its true.
I woke up this morning and knew I was in trouble. I was in a lot of pain and didn’t want to move out of my bed. Even my new shoes weren’t helping much. I honestly thought about getting a scooter but that felt so embarrassing. Plus, I’d worked so hard and was frustrated that nothing seemed to be showing from it. I had gotten the whole inspiration to get in shape from going to Disneyland in 2010 and having so much feet pain. I thought that if I got in shape I would be able to do better but it didn’t work out that way.
I guess I just have bad feet and walking all day isn’t my thing. I’ll swim all day instead!
Anyway, I was at the park until about 2 pm and went to the hotel and honestly felt really discouraged. I was in pain and discouraged about it. I felt like a failure and a little judged, not by family but by the nameless masses at Disneyland (I realize that is ridiculous but sometimes we are ridiculous!)
After a little cry I went for a swim with my Mom and that made me feel much better spiritually and physically. Then I said to myself ‘I wish I could have a massage right now, especially on my feet. Then I said ‘maybe I can?’ I did a quick google and found a service that did door-to-door massages and the price was reasonable. I made the appointment and they came at 5:15. It was an hour long and the best massage I’ve ever had. It was deep and strong but so great. I felt near-comatose after, so relaxed.
Then I ordered thai food and relaxed the rest of the day. I feel like I’ll be ready to go for tomorrow. Wahoo! I realized something about myself. If I’m going to have fun on vacation I need to plan a day on full of busyness, a day off relaxing, repeat. I think that will be true no matter what shape I’m in. When you have chronic pain that’s the way life is.
So I may have wasted a day at Disney but I don’t see it that way. I learned something about myself and had the day I wanted to have. Its my vacation and I have to take responsibility for having a good time. That’s the way it is! Live and learn.