Day: April 23, 2013

Enough Drama in My Life

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Don’t like any of them except for Downton Abbey and maybe Lost

So I’ve been living with my roommate since the beginning of February and everything has gotten better than I could have ever hoped for.  Seriously, I was worried after living alone for 3 years that I would be hard to live with, and I might be but things seem to be working.  Phew!  Maybe one of these days I will be able to convince her to do a profile on this blog.

I think what makes it work is we have a similar cleaning style.  She’s better than me but we’re in the same realm.  We are also both hard core Republicans (love talking politics with her!), both strong in our LDS Faith and both have big, loud families. We also both like TV, which may seem like a little thing but it helps.

What has been interesting is to compare our television viewing.  We both like bride shows and project runway (our biggest argument was over a PR elimination).  I like Survivor, The Voice, Dancing with the Stars, and Food Network shows.  She likes the Walking Dead, Game of Thrones, Dexter and Girls.

The other day we were talking and she asked me ‘Do you like a single drama with a plot?’  To my surprise, I couldn’t think of a single one.  Finally after thinking about it forever I came up with 1 show- Downton Abbey.  I guess Masterpiece I like but that was it.  I could think of shows I used to like such as 24, ER, Lost or an occasional old school Law and Order. (I watched Mad Men for a while but it got too adult themed and ridiculous for me)

This had never occurred to me.  No drama in my TV life!   I wonder why?

Part of it is I am an anxiety absorber and so if something is very tense and dramatic I feel tense and upset.  I internalize things much more than I should but I honestly can’t really help it- especially if it is about murderers or rapists, things like that.  I honestly don’t go to very many dramatic movies because they leave me unsettled.  There has to be an element of hope in them (ie Slumdog Millionaire) for me to benefit from the experience.

Some shows like Drop Dead Diva or How I Met Your Mother have occasional moments of drama while carrying on a comedic tone, and that is nice.  Some shows like Bones I liked but I got bored with.  I tried shows like Breaking Bad and it was too violent, and too much profanity for my taste.  Plus, it felt so pessimistic and somber.

I guess when it comes down to it I watch TV to be entertained.  I’m tired at the end of the day and I don’t want to be challenged.  I want to have fun and laugh.  I also admit that I prefer things that are PGish on television, but I think I would lean to comedy and reality TV anyway.   I don’t like seeing dead bodies or medical procedures and I don’t like being scared, upset, or seeing things about murderers, so that takes out most detective shows and medical dramas.  I used to like X-files but even that got a little gross sometimes.

I also never watch shows like Keeping Up with the Kardashians or other follow me around kind of shows.  I do watch Pawn Stars and shows like that but I can’t even handle the reality version of drama.  I don’t even like Restaurant Impossible. I want to have confidence in my restaurants and that show freaks me out.

Anyway, it was just a funny revelation.  I don’t like drama.  Is there anything I’m missing that I just have to see?  Please let me know!

I do like the new BYU TV show Granite Flats which is a drama, so you never know!

Slowing Things Down

I don’t think I have mentioned on this blog I have started a new pain treatment at the Utah Chronic Pain Center.  This is a dual approach of hormone balancing and laser/decompression treatment all supervised by nurse practitioners and doctors.   As part of the treatment I am supposed to remain active but not cause my muscles to be overly swollen, tender or pulled.   This would revert all of our progress.  I am also supposed avoid bending, twisting or sudden movement.  As a result I have moved from working out 4-6 times a week to more like 2-3 times a week.  I have also been a little less intense on the diet; although I don’t really have an excuse for that.

I have also been specifically told by the doctor to stop mixed martial arts for the moment because it is too jarring and too much potential for my muscles to be strained.  I miss it and hope to be back soon but for the moment, the treatment is very expensive and I’m inclined to listen. :).

Here’s the weird thing- I feel great.  I feel energetic, happy, and relatively free from pain.  In all the years I was working out hard core I kept expecting to be energetic from exercise but never really felt it.  All those endorphins were a myth to me, never a reality (and I mean never).  I can’t explain it but I feel healthier now than I have in years.  Hmmmm… Why does my body have to be a freakazoid and not response like everyone else’s!  Can any of you relate to what I am saying?  Please, please share your experiences.

Now I have to get training again soon because I have the GSL swim coming up and I have been woefully out of the water this year.  (With everything crazy for Poler and Grabber I haven’t had time to get to the pool as much as I would like.  Going tomorrow though!).

What do you think of this?  Am I just deluding myself that these behaviors are making me feel good.  I don’t think so.  I really feel good.  Most importantly I am not in constant pain when I breath, move, bend over or walk.  What should I do in the future because I don’t want to lose all the training I worked so hard for but it was making me feel terrible and it never got easier after 3 years?  Never.   What would you do?  It’s like I have to decide pain or fat?

It’s so hard because you feel like you should almost be feeling bad when you are training but usually that goes away after a while.  For me it was a constant bad reaction to exercise.  Even swimming would leave me weak and frustrated.  There’s a limit how long a person can live like that especially without losing much weight.

I’m puzzled because it seems to go against what doctors and medical science thinks for me to feel better not exercising.  Thoughts?  All I know is what my body is telling me and it is definitely telling me to slow things down.

slow and steady wins the race
slow and steady wins the race