Now for the last 2 weeks I have felt less than beautiful with my bright red eyes, swollen eyelids, general fatigue and make up restrictions. I am not the girliest of girls but I’m not a tom boy either. I’ve had times in my life where I was actually quite fashionable. When I used to work as a receptionist I was always the cutest and trendiest girl in the office (not saying much in that office but still). Since I work alone now I am afraid my wardrobe is often sweats, wet hair and I may still have my swimsuit on underneath it all.
I do like feeling pretty and if I had time I would do myself up beautiful every day but that seems kind of silly when it will all be messed up at the gym. I almost always wear at least a little foundation, eye makeup and lip gloss. I also wash my hair and gel for air dry curls. That’s the plan.
However, lately I have not been able to wear make up especially near my eye. Like I said I’m not a crazy make up person but it does feel weird when you aren’t wearing it when you are used to wearing it. I always feel like my face is very red and I need powder and foundation to lessen that reddening. So at church on Sunday with a red face, red eyes I felt like some kind of devil woman! Everyone else said they didn’t even notice but I noticed.
So, anyway, this week I have been thinking about ways to relax. I do a lot of fun, hard, interesting, exciting things but not many that are relaxing. Sometimes I wonder if I lack the capability to relax. There is so much to be done. I have hard time turning my brain off of the important stuff. That’s why I’m an insomniac.
Well, today I had a free night and I have been needing to color my hair but am trying to save money before the purchase of my new home (frame went up today!). So, I colored my own hair. I have done this twice before with mixed results. First time great, second time too dark. Still, neither was a total bomb.
So I went at it!
Eventually I rinsed it out, dried it and then went to work with all of my baskets of products (I try one curl product and give up on it and then another and one more). I call my vanity my curl product graveyard! Anyway I tried everything and worked my magic!
After I finished and looked beautiful in the mirror I felt great! And you know what? After a week of thinking of things to help me relax, I relaxed! I felt refreshed, calm, happy, and beautiful. What a great thing!
Although this could be bad. How many times can I dye my hair in one year!
Isn’t it great when such a small thing can make you feel real joy.
Now I just wish I had a man I could take this gorgeous hair out with. Sigh… One dream fulfilled at a time! 🙂