The Big 30

Well I don’t have long to post but suffice it to say I am now officially 30 years old.  Shocking, astonishing, amazing but true.  I remember an interview I saw of a 103 year old woman.

When the reporter asked her “How does it feel to be 103?”

she said “Well, as you age you don’t really feel older.”

“What do you mean?” said the reporter

“Well, inside, my brain wonders about the same things it used to wonder about, it loves the same things it used to love, and it longs for many of the same things it used to long for.”

When I think of myself at 10, 15,20, or 25  I see many changes in my intellect, career knowledge, accomplishments, testimony and with many other areas of my life.  However, my heart, the core of who I am,  hasn’t changed much in those 30 years.  I still love a good book. (The books dearest to my heart are those I have loved for years- read again and again.They are like old friends.) I still love to laugh with my girlfriend’s over a stupid sitcom or reality show.  After all these years the Simpsons still makes me laugh (22 years and counting).  I still love to cook and explore new recipes. I still love a delicious meal ended with a lemon meringue pie  with tons of real lemon juice (anything citrus I love!)!

I still love to talk and to listen.  I still treasure the  kindred spirits in my life.  I still love a great play (or even a lousy one put on with gusto!).  I still love an entertaining movie or concert.  I still have passion for great music. I am still taking voice lessons after all these years and the music from Les Miserables still makes me cry.  I still enjoy politics and feel a grand sense of passion for my country.   I still love to pull together outfits and find cute jewelry.  I still hate camping and sleeping outdoors.  I still am not an animal or bird lover.  I still love a good, or even greasy,  piece of pizza.  I still get cranky when I’m tired or hungry, and I still don’t enjoy exercising (but now I do it anyway!).   I still love to travel especially New York City and any beach anywhere especially Hawaii.

The list could go on and on.-

There are many things in my life that I am proud of- that I feel are a part of my eternal plan and that I’ve worked very hard to achieve. However, of all my accomplishments, I am proudest  of the hard work I’ve put in to cultivating relationships and building friendships.  I love my friends and family more then I can adequately put into words. I will do anything for them and (as I’ve seen with my injury) I believe they would do anything for me.

This is not a great poem but it expresses how I feel today (so perhaps it is better than I am giving it credit for)

Moment in Time
by Cynthia Kepp

We talked,
We walked,
for a Moment in Time.

You passed through my life that day and left your mark.
You may never pass my way again,
Or you may stay for a lifetime.

No matter what,
I want to say thank you for the impression you made
that will stay with me for eternity.

I enjoyed the walk,
I enjoyed the talk.
I am blessed for that moment in time.

The first time I saw you I knew you would affect my life,
though your role I did not know.
I asked myself, “Why is he alone?
Why does he sit so quiet?
Is he sad?
Is he glad to be alone?
Is he alone?
Is he lonely? ”
There is so much I want to know.

I asked myself, “Why him?
When so many people pass through my life each day,
why him? “

What attracts me to you?
What makes me want to know more?
I want to know.

Even if my questions are never answered,
There is one thing I want you to know.
I have been blessed by the effect you had on me in that
Moment in Time.


Thanks for all the moments.   Thanks for all the walks, talks and especially the love.  I love you all.  I love My Lord, and I LOVE MY LIFE!

This song is appropriate given the day.

6 thoughts on “The Big 30

  1. Rachel!

    It has been a fun ride with you these 30 years. You weren’t always the easiest child when you were little, but you have always been interesting and beautiful and trying so hard. It is a privelege to be your Mom.

    I love you, you are awesome. Thanks for being such a great big sister.

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