First Check Off the List

As many of you will remember a few weeks ago I had post entitled the Too Fat For List.  This is a list of 17 things that I am either unable to do or don’t enjoy doing because of my weight.  As I am working to get in shape I plan on checking off items on the list and then reporting the experiences on my blog.  I may not be successful in all of them but I want to at least make the attempt.

Today was the beginning of checking something off of my list.  In fact, it was the #1 item on the list.  This morning I made my first attempt at climbing the rock wall at my gym.  My trainer met me and surprise the harness fit! I don’t know if it could have in March- it was close now and that’s 35 lbs lighter (that’s right, as of last week down 35 lbs!).   I was nervous the rope would break or that my trainer would be catapulted into the air because I’m so much heavier than her.  I know such thoughts are irrational, but I guess sometimes I am irrational!

Anyway, I got harnessed up and then attacked the ‘easy’ part of the wall.  It was harder than I thought it would be but after three attempts I made it about double my height on the wall.  I didn’t get to the top or even half-way but for a girl that couldn’t do a pull up if my life depended on it I think it was pretty good. My trainer was so amazing and encouraging.  She didn’t even charge me for the hour she spent with me (not to mention helping Sammy and Madeline climb the wall.  They had a lot of fun at the gym, and I was glad they were there to cheer me on!).

I must admit that when I finished, despite having not made it to the top, I felt an overwhelming sense of accomplishment.   Here was something which for years I felt was impossible.  It’s not that I felt bad or depressed about it but it was just an accepted reality- an activity I passed over without much thought. I’ve been working so hard and I can already feel my world-changing as a result.  It’s difficult to explain but since I have been heavy from 10 years of age on there are certain messages that I’ve been feeding myself for nearly 20 years.  I think there are few heavy girls that have the self-esteem and confidence I have but even still there are barriers to break down.   It’s like all of the sudden the athletic world I’ve been staring at all these years is starting to enter my world…I can’t think of any other way to explain it.

The most exciting part is that my trainer said we will climb the wall once a month and that I should get higher each time.  I can’t wait for that day when I reach the top!  Even after today it still seems a little impossible but I’m working on believing…

Sammy took some photos with his phone and once he sends them to me I will add them to this post.  If he forgets then I will take photos next time- hopefully at a higher spot!

Check #1 off the list! Wahoo!  (I think I will go ice my arms and legs.  I’m sore!)

10 thoughts on “First Check Off the List

  1. Rachel, I’ve been a pretty lame blogger lately, and my lameness has extended to my reading of blogs as well…but I checked in here today and was so excited to read through the posts I’ve missed. First of all, I was appalled at the bad doctor story and I’m glad that you passed your complaints along to your primary care doctor and the insurance company, as well as complaining to her office directly! Also, I am inspired by your list and am so thrilled that you have already been able to cross off the climbing wall! I’m sorry I missed your healthy recipe contest, but I do have an awesome whole wheat pancake recipe that I’d love to share with you if you’re in need of one. I’m glad you’re doing so well and making steady progress with your weight loss goal. You are truly an inspiration!

    1. thanks for reading my blog. I certainly understand how crazy life can get. Please send the whole wheat pancake recipe. I LOVE pancakes! Thanks for the encouragement. Its been quite the adventure- a lot more to go!

      1. Here’s the pancake recipe…sorry it’s taken me a while!


        1 egg
        1 cup buttermilk
        2 T oil
        1 T honey
        1 cup whole wheat flour
        1 t baking powder
        1/2 t baking soda
        1/2 t salt
        fresh or frozen blueberries (optional)

        Whisk wet ingredients together, taking care to sufficiently beat the egg. Then add dry ingredients, mixing well. For smoother batter, use electric beaters (I’m usually too lazy to get them out and just mix it by hand). I like to use fresh ground flour, and I prefer to use soft white wheat (aka, whole wheat pastry flour). Hard white wheat will work as well, but if you go to red wheat you will be exchanging a mild flavor for a stronger one. If desired, add three to five blueberries (depending on the size of your pancakes) to each pancake immediately after dropping the batter onto the grill. Do not mix the blueberries all at once directly into the batter; it will just turn the batter blue! Coat a grill with nonstick cooking spray and preheat to 300-325 degrees. You may want to fiddle with the temperature a bit to find out where it’s optimal. If it’s too hot the pancakes will be dark brown. When the batter starts to bubble, gently lift an edge with a spatula; if it’s a light brown/golden color and seems like it will stay intact, then it’s ready to be flipped. Cook on second side for a minute of two, peaking under the edge frequently to make sure it doesn’t get too dark. Sometimes I flip them back over the the first side for several seconds just to make sure that the pancakes are cooked all the way through. It is our tradition to eat them with pure maple syrup (but it is a bit pricey…we get ours at Costco). If you don’t use up all of the batter at once, you can store it in an airtight container in the fridge for a few days. (It might look discolored when you take it out, but simply stir it and it will look normal again.)

        1. I finally made these pancakes and they were delicious. Thanks for the tip! I used agave in the dough instead of honey and I used agave flavored syrup- not as good as original but better for you. I also put peanut butter on mine to give them protein. Thanks for the recipe.

  2. Rachel,

    I think I spoke to you on the phone today about your Draper property. When you said you liked books it rang with me that I’d somehow, sometime seen your blog–at least I hope this is that Rachel! Great job on the rock climbing! My husband and daughter love the stuff. At any rate sorry we are so flaky and slow. We are still debating over the second night.

    Sincere thanks for your patience, and talk to you soon!


    1. It is Rachel from the phone today. The internet is amazing! I will call you if I get another offer. I look forward to you staying at our house. Thanks, Rachel.

  3. Congratulations! That’s something I’ve always wanted to do but I’ve been to scared to try-so I’m really impressed that you did it! Can’t wait to hear when you reach the top 🙂

    1. Thanks. If you want to give it a try you should come with me the next time I do it. My trainer is great at calming and encouraging the climber.

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